Memories of My Son

I have been prompted many times to write about this yound man but I have been puting it aside.

Born in July 7 1981
Time of Birth: 15:35
Weight at Birth: 8lb 6oz.


A very healthy little baby a bundle of joy to me and sleeps only in the day and wants to be carried at night. I went through a very hard time taking care of him during my month of confinement. But I managed it. Brought him back to Hong Kong in the hot summer months and there was no aircondition room but just a fan in the top floor of an apartment block where the hit is scorching . He grew up in North Point in Hong Kong, during his growing years his mother didnt know how to love him the way he wants to be love. He is sometimes has got to go through a hard time of his mother venting her anger at him.

I love him and I wanted to give him everything but yet I was torn I need a job cos i feel insecure with his dad but he also needs to return to Singapore cos of National Service.
At the age of 11 he returned to Singapore and stay with my sister who seems to be a tyrannt to him and was punish when he broke a spoon on chinese new year and was punish to sleep in the kitchen.

At the age of 13 he returned to stay in my apartment with his dad and younger sister when they migrated to Singapore. He then spend days in Singapore. My heart broke when I saw him when he visited Hong Kong and I was a transformed of 32 inches waistline to a 26 inchese waistline that makes me want to return to Singapore to be reunited with the family.

Me have lived alone most of the time, find it hard to assimilate to the family lifestyle of life. I could not take it anymore but left Singapore to go back to Hong Kong. We constantly communicte via telephone calls and internet communication but it could take the place of smiles and hugs and physical presence.

He was an indepentent boy with a sense of wanting to work and lean more. He works in MOS burger, Dome and even work as sales person selling items from office to office. He is my only son and most loveable boy but i am a lousy mother that could not understand how he feels and comprehend with his feelings and emotion.

Somehow i was not able to bond with him till later when i left Hong Kong and lived on my own where he could communicate with ZEUS and share time with me and Zeus and myself and there started a bonding.

He would "pontang" his tution classes to spend time with me and make excuses to go to gym but secretly spending time with me. During his first job he bought me a handphone 3210 for me but to me since he spent so much money i felt that he should keep it for himself I appreciate his generousity. He half paid for the refrigerator as my housewarming gift.

To read more about my most beloved son Ansen Li Ho Kwan. come read my blog again another day.