Often, I felt that I am being scarifice for other matters or other people. I felt very unjustified but somehow I could not voice it out. If i were to voice it out it would be world war three for me and I could only weep to myself in my house alone and feel that life is not worth living and somehow I wish I have the courage to take my own life. I know I cry and I weep it will not solve the matter but I really cant solve the matter. Unless I make up my mind what I really want in my life.

I can count all the unhappy events
breaking of fingers
telling me that all the things he tells me I know - eg BMI (does that mean you that you dont know and I have to just as naive as you do.) (Everything I tell you, you know - what is wrong that I know and you do not know) When I know something and I share it with you... what were you thinking did you take my words serious. I just feel so small.....you made me feel.

Lost and Found

It was almost 7 years that I lost contact with my favourite niece Lyn. When I last got intouch her she was in Findlay. I dont know why eversince young I always have a very soft spot for her and then she grew up. I think I share the same mutual feelings about her tyrant mother.

Certainly not a very nice person to live with. You wouldnt want to know much about her. hmmm my mother may have spoilt her since her younger days but imagine a person born in the year of the tiger is either a tiger or tigeress. These people can be unreasonable if theychoose too and most of the time she is unreasonable.

Nevermind about that tigeress not even good for beer. Yucksss!!!
A few days ago (Friday night April 15) I was bored and I lost didnt know what to do so i decided to check my emails and saw this merlion. Then I remember what my favourite nephew Mark said that was her email .... so i decided to add into my YM (Yahoo Messenger). She acknowledge and we started chatting oh my!!!!! I miss her if she is here with me I would hug and kisses her non stop.. muaxx muaxxxxx muaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

I finally found her and got in touch with her again...... yeahhhhh!!! Praise the Lord, we chat till 2:30am. I get to see photos of her daughters and I am so pleased. Maybe I should make a trip to see her. cos I love and I miss her.

http://www.geocities.com/merlioninus/

Split my own arrows

Today was a fine day and I went to Bo Tien Temple. I didnt what I like and enjoy what i did. Packing for the single destitute family. I take that as my weekly exercise and yet get to meet people and do a good deed.

After that I decided to give Hilda a call and to meet up with her as she is getting married in May. Have a few chats with her totally ignore her dad who was busy working on the computer. Chit chatted with Hilda and then after that i decided to take my leave and I thought i go for a car wash but it started to rain as I was traveling along the express way.

So no point to wash my car then. So I decided to go for my training. I then started to do my training for 100 arrows which is 10 rounds of 10 arrows. All that in one hours. As I was shooting in my 7 rounds. One of my arrows hit my own arrows and I saw the nocks flew out and was in my heart, I said to myself wasted my nocks. As I went to draw my arrows. I realised that my nocks was not just broken but my arrow hit one of the arrows that was already on the target it split. No choice happy and yet worried. Happy that I was consistent and sad that I have arrow less to use.

After the around my arrows was not as close at the rest as I worried that I will split my arrows again and then has less arrows to use.

Got home and was worried and not sure if I should tell Mr Wong about it and not sure how he would react. So I sent him an sms as I was afraid to tell him.. He called and congratulated me on my achieve. So at lesss not too bad comforted by his congratulations.

Have a nice day.

My First Training in the Elite Team

Wow, I was all excited about who are the people in the team. I was late and I had to set up my bow in a rush which eating my bun.

Before we started shooting, our coach call us together and explain what was expected from us. That he is not paid to do this but he wants to train us like an national standard archer. We had to write down our consumption of food. Record our intake or whatever and also our rest.

Strength training, skills training and mental training. We first started off with warm up and then started to shoot with our terra band and feel each of our muscles
and then had two round of sighting rounds and then shoot for the scoring rounds. After 6 details of 6 arrows. My score was miserable of 223.

Then we moved on to the quick and slow shooting - 3 minutes for 6 arrows and 1 minute for arrows, 2 minutes for 6 arrows and 1minute 30 secs for 6 arrows and 4 minutes for 6 arrows and 30 secs for 6 arrows. If we failed to finish shooting 6 arrows in the dedicated time, we had to do 5 push up for each unfinished arrows.

Overall the training was fun and yet tough. I enjoy it and look forward for more.

Miss K Lian and Speech Day

Today is school speech day and yesterday everyone was busy with work and last minute work. One of the teachers which i nicknamed her miss K Lian walked into my room and told me that she is here to pick up her notebook. Wow very demanding... she doesnt see others busy but bulldozed her way but unfortunately... i was busy to entertain her bulldozing and soI told her not now... I had to rush off some stuff by by 3pm for big boss. So wasnt happy and certianly approach my HOD to show her discontentment.

Ha Ha lucky I was truly busy with and later she didnt want to get her notejbook but then told one of the teachers that she will collect the notebook from the TA the technical assistance.

So i informed my boss about the incident and surely.... miss K lian "bo shiok" even she tells my boss but boss told her he needed me to do some work for him..... '

This shows that K lian is immature and unproffessional..... that goes for miss K lian..... so let you guess what does K stands for....

one more thing about K lian... she is so shallow and insensitive and one day she ask one malay teacher who wears a dudong if she is teaching mother tongue. and the lady who wears a dudong wasnt a mother teacher but she is an english language and english literature teacher. Mdm Z was upset with her for asking such a stupid question.

That shows why she deserved the name K Lian.